Love Memories Live Moments
My whole life I’ve been excluded from everything, abandoned by people who claim Love. I would think to myself “I never even asked to be here!”. Why does it seem like I have a whole other life out there that I don’t even exist in. It seems like I don’t even really know who I am or where I came from.
I see pictures of people that I’m related to and I don’t even know who they are, and if I did know them at one time, now they are just strangers. Sometimes I just feel like I don’t belong.
When I was younger I remember how happy everyone would be to see me, now most people could care less if I even exist. It’s not just family, it’s friends too. Maybe I just burned too many bridges, but then there are people who don’t talk to me anymore and I just don’t understand why.
Why do we do this to people we care about, or at least once cared for? I can say I’m guilty of doing this to friends and family as well. Everyone just gets busy and caught up in everyday life that we can’t seem to fit everyone in. It’s sad really, but then there are just people that we don’t want anything to do with.
Maybe those people are toxic. I’m sure I’ve been the toxic person in a lot of people’s lives at one point in time. I guess the point I’m trying to make is let’s not give up on each other. Yeah maybe taking time away or giving each other some space is good, but if there is someone you really love and care for, don’t give up on them.
People can change! I’m living proof, I have changed my entire life for the better. I’ve reached out to everyone I’ve hurt to ask for forgiveness, some responded with love and well some just blocked me from their lives. Of course, this hurts; but the most important thing is I tried.
I’m not mad at anyone and I completely understand. I just look at it like this. God put people in your life for seasons, some stick and some fall off. It doesn’t mean I love them any different or don’t care. It just means the time has come and passed. All I can do now is love the memories and live in the moments!
